- Leo Rupa Adhikari
It has been a foggy day, today. The Sun must
be struggling to show its strengthening beauty, but it’s worthless. The air
around the atmosphere has been whitened. It seems as if the scenario all around
has spread the fragrance of romanticism. Feeling of shyness, fear and
excitement too was playing a fierce battle inside her stomach. No noise could be
heard easily. The climate had made the people rest inside their home because of
drizzling water and teasing cool breeze. The busy town too is in its way
standing and facing each buildings, a few people roaming and puddles played by
water. And the manmade vehicles producing the irritating sound as usual was
disturbing the calm city.
The alarm of the watch distracts Pamela from
the deep sleep. She wipes rubbing her closed eyes. The messy hair is likely
making her look funny. Throwing blankets unfolded, she’s hurry to finish the
morning schedule. From the bathroom, she again enters inside her room.
Excitedly, she opens up the curtains and ties bangle to hold it. She’s upset
now as the environment doesn’t seem supporting her enjoyments for which she had
planned with her beloved on this day. Pamela has turned 18 since this July. The
shadow of adolescence can be easily noticed on her physical structure and
restless behaviors.
She watches her red watch
now with eagled eyes. And starts going for freshness. Since, the day before,
she had dreamt about the curiosities. Absolutely, the heart becomes out of
control and has wings on every emotions at the teen time. Hunger hasn’t
disturbed yet. Excitement had touched the ceiling of her periphery. After a
time, she opens the make-up drawer and starts choosing the colour shades,
because she is confused whether to become the gorgeous or simple one. Applying
the base of foundations, she made her cheeks go chubby and red using blushers,
eyes the majestic, lashes go long applying mascaras , spiral curly hair changing the straight
original, and added lip gloss slightly touching her lipstick above the lips
smelling fantastic deodorants. She now felt herself as the most beautiful
angel. Choosing floral skirt and crimson red t-shirt, she began to mirror herself. Stucking after
twenty minutes, she hurried. Mother was inviting for the meal where as she was
busy maintaining herself as a newly bride to make an impression. She had two
spoon of rice and rushed away.
Travor, a tall guy having height of 5,9’ ,
pale yellow skin complexion, messed hair, mole on left cheek had added marvel
in his appearance. He was in love with Pamela since his first college day.
Since then, he had his concern on her arrival, positions on class and returning
home. He used to be too punctual and regular at college. He had his own
attitude especially when he used to face Pamela. Secretly glancing her had been
the repeated task on every periods. Though, they had an attached intimacy,
hadn’t been able to keep the proposal about the date. So why, this date meant a
lot to Travor as well. He was ready since 8 o’ clock. He had woke at 5 today
without alarms or mom’s insist. Making his beard and putting well ironed chocolaty
t-shirt and light maroon soft jeans was enhancing him no more than a model. He
was just in wait of 11 a.m., since some weeks. The day has appeared and
approximately the time, he had been waiting. Though he knew that waiting
becomes offensive at Durbarmarg Cafe, he challenged the 3 hours; waiting,
handling himself, excitement and shyness.
Though, the time was killing him somewhere
inside, his waiting for Pamela was adding stamina in high speed inside to erase
the boredom. Pamela was boating on the surfacial part of his mind and heart
blocking every functions. It’s 11, now the heartbeat is increasing its degree
of increasing speed somehow he’s facing a quick heart attack. He could easily
identify from far distance, the beautiful girl whom he could know even she was
left in darkness, was fetching a large mass. The nearer she shortened her
distance, the more it was difficult to control his attacks. He was holding the
wall with his hands to give the support towards his heroism. The soft youth
including her beauty and generosity was bulleting him.
The girl too was shy and reddish.
She just asked about the time of his arrival. The waiter nearby them was
noticing the facial expressions and silence of youth. The silence was broken
after half an hour.They ordered two cups of coffee with a pastry of cake. The
college environment and this bakery environment was making feel both of them as
a vast type of difference. They hadn’t felt any types of feelings except
attraction of chasing one another’s eyes. Here, both are exercising their
freedom even though they could feel something going inside, locked lips,
awkwardness and main the musical environment with whom they wanted to pass many
more hours. Anyways, they were behaving as statues, no disturbance could break
their feelings which were playing a marathon inside both. While taking the cups
at a same time, their fingers enrolled each other. And this was the much
pleasurable moment the youths were experimenting. The curiosities, shyness,
excitements, youthful desires passions were sinking instead the sugar inside
the coffee. Kind of solace massaged
their muscles as both of them were less of appetite. The youths must have desired of double touch
but they loosed it as the first touching of fingers was creating a type of ringing
tone somewhere inside. They had nothing to talk about though had planned since
night before. The talkative here are acting passive as the most gentle student
for the teachers in every lectures. Busy in gazing each other, the lovebirds
passed out the 4 hours of dating without no more talkings, kissings, flirtings
or somewhat else other the youth had desired. The touching had the precious
love that they trapped inside the net of the memorable date.
Datings can be memorable, mesmerizing, and
full of chastity without entertaining the physical intimacies. The youth has
brought a kind of control less condition, infatuations and attractions. It’s
not the fault of teens, rather the nature and the age. Sigmund Freud had propounded
regarding the repressions and psychological sexual sufferings and the ways to
outcome from there. According to him, the id, ego and superego are the
conscious, unconscious and superstructures to create the psychological ups and
downs in individuals. The essence of living is for love. The more love you share,
the happier you are. Lets not compare the purity of love towards the body
attachments so that we may get blurred in identifying the definition of love. The
feeling of providing love towards others, make you the divine creature in the
world. Hence, we must distinguish between what sort of love we are doing and
what we are expecting. The youth time too can be valuable having romantic vibes
of thoughts and desires erasing traumas on the other hand blending the bodies
carries a lots of regrets and sadness in future because of the second of
enjoyment having short term decisions.
Teen is such a phase in human lifetime,
where the youths haven’t been able to bear the maturity and the behavior
somewhat affects to be dedicated on their studies. No human being is free from
the changing physical and emotional habituate performances with the change in
lapse of time. That is why, they need to be behaved as a friend so that they
could share every changes they are facing to their guardians. We have found on
religious texts too that, a child must be loved up to age of six, must be
placed in strict discipline up to fifteen and afterthen, should be treated as a
best friend. Love is the most beautiful and pure feeling that has made to survive
the whole world in dilemmas. Not only human beings, the animals too can feel
love and they enjoy their life making love. We too can see on teen learnings
that, the friendly teacher becomes intimate than the strict one. We can see the
high divorce rates are being incredible in teenagers having maximum generation
gap and due to psychological misbalance in parents and children. So why, let
your children live their way and let you become trustful by applying
psychological theories since the child birth.
